A Dose of Reality and (another) Lesson in Patience

It's no secret that I work in the wedding industry. There are times that I absolutely adore it and then there are others where it gets very trying. Now hold on a second, don't get me wrong,

I. LOVE. MY. JOB. 

But as a "single" girl dealing with booking weddings and going to wedding shows and attending weddings, it gets taxing. I get all caught up in the planning and the magic of all things wedding that I start to plan my own (I have a whole board on Pinterest, but who doesn't right?)--to the point where I'm in a super rush to get married. 

I tell Joshua (and may or may not pressure him), he gets annoyed (ok so I am pressuring him), then I get annoyed that he's annoyed, and it doesn't end well. 

This is the point where I start to feel like an old maid, and get this slight panic feeling that Joshua never wants to commit and doesn't love me anymore (see out. of. control.) and that I may never get married and then....I realize....

Wait a minute. I'm only 22. I only graduated college 6 months ago and I have so much that I want to accomplish.

There is no absolute rush to get married. 

There are two trends in the industry right now--that I've noticed.

One: Getting married in your early twenties or earlier. 

Two: Getting married in your mid to late twenties.

Each are perfectly fine and a personal preference. 

I'm not here to tell you that getting married so young is wrong and that you should wait until you're 27.

When you're ready, you're ready and only you as a couple know that. 

What I do know, is that as much as I'd like think I'm ready, I know deep down that I'm not. 

(wow that took a lot to admit) 

If I'd got married now, I'd be doing it for all the wrong reasons (because everyone else is). After all of the glitz from planning a wedding fades and I have a second to sit down and think about it. Getting married scares the crap out of me. I'm not ready to grow up, take on all of the grown up responsibilities (I'd like to take this whole grown up thing in as many tiny steps as possible)--much less share anything with Joshua (besides our dog). Call me selfish, but that's where I am in my life right now. 

#divastatus

 And I know there are so many goals, individual goals, that we both want to accomplish before we tie the knot.

I have plenty of time to grow up and plenty of time to get married. Yep that's right people, you heard it here first. (ring the alarm and someone tell Joshua) I will do my best to try to stop badgering him about the type of ring I want, updating him on who's getting married and when, and what the best month to get married would be.

If I get proposed to tomorrow that would be great, but if it's another two years that's great too. 

Because I said so.